Wow, I've got so many mixed emotions going on today. Is it any wonder I slept about 14 hours last night and still managed an hour nap this afternoon? What a bittersweet time of year this is for me this year. I keep thinking about last holiday season...when life seemed "normal". I keep thinking about next holiday season and how I'll be divorced and living in a different house and might not even have my kids with me. That makes me want to cry into an entire bottle of wine. I've certainly done my share of feeling sorry for myself lately. The soon-to-be-ex has NYE plans on a party bus with friends. That leaves me home and alone with the kids. They'll little so they'll probably be in bed by 8:00...8:30 at the latest. That leaves me several hours to feel sorry for myself. I stupidly posted on Facebook (my personal addiction) that I was looking for either a babysitter or for someone to come and commiserate with me at home. That made me look and feel even more pathetic than I did before.
Kids and I made some delicious peanut butter cookies tonight and we're now anxiously awaiting the arrival of my BFF and her fam. So thankful to have D and her wonderful kids and husband to help us make this bittersweet time a little less bitter and a bit more sweet. Thank you D!
I LOVE you!!!
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